Really, You Don’t Have To Explain…

Last night I was listening to an AA talk on YouTube.  I'd heard this particular talk before by a speaker named Bob D.  He spoke about his introduction to Alcoholics Anonymous and his first few months in the rooms. He told about one man who influenced him in the beginning and became his sponsor.  This …

Then & Now

For me, To fight...was to lose To want....was to have less To hate......was to become hated To rush...was to never have enough time To take......was to have more taken from me To drink...was to escape all the feelings & emotions So now, I surrender every day I feel grateful for all that I have I …

Mixed Emotions

I told you a little about my son in a previous post called "Hard To Watch." Watching him struggle with life (and alcohol) hasn't gotten any easier. He's gotten worse. Much worse. His apparent daily drinking has led to more criminal charges, a suicide attempt, and the psych ward of a hospital. On Tuesday he …

The Watch

Not long ago I posted a poem that my mother wrote related to her alcoholism called The Dragon. I thought I might again share another example of her writing  My mother passed away in 1994 but her words still affect me. The Watch has given me clues about who my mother and grandfather really were and how they must have suffered …

Pleasure and Pain

The man I used to be could be a real asshole at times. The practicing alcoholic that I was caused pain to people who got close to me. When I was drinking, I sometimes hurt people emotionally.  Sadly, that happened to some of the females who wandered into my life. They became my victims. I …

Autumn Walk

This afternoon I went for a walk. It's something that I do often but today was a little different. Instead of driving to one of the metropolitan parks and hiking the gravel paths, I walked the sidewalks of my suburb's streets. A  two mile loop around my neighborhood. And instead of walking with my dad …